12:48 AM and I can’t sleep

The title says it all. It is almost one in the mrning and I know I should be going to sleep but I can’t shut my mind off. There have been thoughts swirling thru my head all night. I have been having trouble sleeping as of late and I am not sure why. For now, things at work are going well. I have been having issues with a couple of my crew members, but nothing too major. Things at home have been a little rocky as of late. My wife and I have been arguing a little more than usual as of late. It is never anything of real substance, just stupid stuff that never really needed to be discussed let alone argued about. Sometimes I wonder what the point is. We love each other that is certain. But there are times. Boy are there times. She will threaten seperation and tell me she’s not coming home from work, accuse me of infidelity , or some other nonsense or another, that makes me want to give up ok it all. After 10 years it shouldn’t me this hard anymore. We have learned each other’s quirks. We have found each other’s buttons, we can pretty much launch the equivelant of nuclear holocaust on each other at a moment’s notice. We shouldn’t have to resort to that, should we? Our relationship should be beyond that now. There is no need. We both know that our love is strong and our feelings for each other maintained through alot of bad times. How should now be any different? Our children are thriving, we have a roof over our head, we have food to eat, clothes to wear. What is the problem? Sure we both have to work more than we would like, but that is the nature of our existence. She has accepted me for who I am and apparently is surprised by me just being me. On the same note, I can predict with near certainty most of her actions but yet some of the things she does still get on my nerves. One day we will both figure this stuff out and we will live happily ever after instead of just happy for today.